Dotting my "I's" and crossing my "t's"

Today I marked off one of the last few prerequisites for my program: I got my BLS certification. (only the dreaded online Nutrition course and Developmental Psych left) Before I digress, let me tell you about this training. The instructors were really fun and helpful and the 3.5 hours flew by. I also met two of my future classmates that although they would be pursuing different specialties, we will take the same pre-specialty courses. During the training all I could think was can I do this? Am I ready to be put in emergency situations where my skill level could mean the difference between life and death?....Hecks yeah! Even practicing on Big Blue (my simulation dummy) I could feel the adrenalin peaking in. I guess this is what is so enticing about all the medical dramas on network television now. And while this rush was thrilling, it made me realize even more while I want to become a nurse practitioner...I never want to feel helpless, or have anyone around me feel helpless, ever.

I guess my reasoning for choosing this career is a bit odd, because what person walks around saying "Helplessness, please rain down on me!" but it is honestly one of my biggest fears. Maybe this is just one of the characteristics of my need to be in control nature or it just might be a justifiable reason to go into the health care profession. Justified or not, it is why I am putting my life on hold and taking out an outrageous amount in federal loans. I have never felt so in control of my life.

A new start!

I am so excited to start my accelerated MSN program. So, I figured it was a great time to start documenting the entire 27 months on my journey to become a certified nurse midwife. Hopefully, this can be helpful to others and I can get some advice along the way, too!